Faith

“Faith means doubt. Faith is not the suppression of doubt. It is the overcoming of doubt, and you overcome doubt by going through it. The man of faith who has never experienced doubt is not a man of faith,” - Thomas Merton.

I've had quite a lot of doubt for years now. Religion is not for everybody. Right now, I don't think it's for me. But, I never stray as far as to call myself an atheist. It's too resolute.

This quote bring one my idols to mind, Dostoevsky. And to an extend Tolstoy.
Dostoevsky was a man of profound insight, a literary genius. Dan Brown or whoever is sensationalist de jour can't write The Brothers Karamazov. Dostoevsky died a man of faith. But, he battled with it throughout his life. Being sent to a Serbian prison will do that kinda thing to you. And, he raised many interesting questions and arguments against and for religion in his books and other writings.
At least for me that's what I respect the most. A comprehensive observation of a subject. As much as I love football, hearing Tim Tebow spew about Jesus every time he gets a chance, knowing he was raised by missionaries kind of deflates his point.
I rather look at true faith as a journey. Especially in our times. With the wealth of (free) information it's illogical to think men, or women, or an elephant came from a divine power. How do you argue against carbon dating? How do you argue physics? Evolution? How does one instantly believe in fat babies flying about in the sky? Or that Jesus walked on water and ascended to heaven?
To me to arrive at a faith-driven answer takes time getting to know both arguments. I like to reference to the people that go through life-changing events or some type of shock and find answers in religion but is that true faith. What inspired them was their misfortune. It's a journey that for those who take it is long and winding. I'll let you know what's at the end for a godless mystic.

I really want to write more on the subject beside a quick thought, putting proper time into it. More, some other time.